| my future <3 |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|12:46 pm] |
i've been thinking about what i'm gunna do after highschool. what path my life is going to take and this is what i've come up with. how i want to live my life:
graduate highschool. then moved down to orange county or someplace down there. get an apartment. go to cosmotogy school. so i can become a make-up artist-hair dresser or go 2 fashion school so i can design clothes. have my band, you know do shows and what not. make a cd. hopefully more than one but who knows. do some photography for bands and models hopefully. hopefully get married lol if i find love. maybe have some kids. idk though having kids seem to ruin marriages. and i'm not down for the whole divorce thing. i just want a beautiful and happy life. its gunna be hard with the things i want to do. but i'm willing to do them.
schools i want to try for:
1.International acedemy of cosmetology in long beah :-)
2. Chico beauty College
3. Avance' Beauty College - San Diego
4. Marinello School of Beauty - San Diego
5. Colleen O'Hara's Beauty Academy - Orange
all for now!
<3 katey<3 |
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| AIM- your hawt butt |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|09:08 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | F.A.T.A | ] |
she says no dont please i dont want to
as his hands graze her hips
he doesnt care hes there to get what he wants
nothing more
love has no meaning its 3 words we use
but I LOVE YOU he screams
she knows it fake, she wants to believe
what she use to
she doesnt
she lets him use her again
she feels worthless shes been used
again
nothing matters more, she makes him leave
he cant witness what shes going to accomplish
she takes her knife
please! let this end my misery she screams
she sees the red run down her wrist
suddenly everything is a blurr
she faints
silent screams in her dreams
wake her up
the demons are haunting her, theres no way to escape
-end-
<3 katey |
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| KxC CrEw |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|07:34 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | atreyu- deanne the arsonist | ] |
har har. such a great crew you dont even know. everything that i now write in this journal is going to be my writings not on my day-to-day life. so dont expect me to write ooh my day was fuckin peachy blah blah blah.. this is the last post that will contain this stuff.
here: http://www.livejournal.com/users/askatielaydying/
that one is going to cotain everything other than my writings. so add that one to your friend thing if you want to read it, b/c only y friends should be aloud to look at my thoughts and give advice/comment me. if you arent my friend and you do read my journal then comment and i'll add you to my friend thinger.
KxC crew-
you guys hella rock. james thanks for helpin me with the crew. but... i'm not sure who you've become and i dont know how to help you anymore. so please tell me what i can do to help you. your still like my bro dude.. you've alywas been there for me... through everything. just like kevin ( R.I.P) mkay mkay. so tell me james.
KxC crew reppin. lol. \m/
here i'm feeling this right now:
Coward, the next time you want to fuck me over stab me in the front
Can I still see my future in your eyes,
or can I picture myself dead in your embrace
And your cruel crimson red smile, kills
Everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
Instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings.
No one could have their moments free from your withering touch.
Fuck off like you're the only person that has ever cried or been broken by love
Spare me your pity party drunk off your own misfortunes
Wallowing in your blissful melancholy
.can you taste my blood. You knew that this would kill me. But you carried on and on
with your selfish shit., everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings.
burnt down my world, you killed my hope
spread out the ash and walked away
how could you just close off your eyes.
turn tail and run, you are the greatest coward
damn right I am still pissed..
next time I see you we will see who has the upper hand
kiss me fist. Taste the floor. Tired of your games. fuck off goodbye. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 3rd, 2004|08:50 am] |
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| |  creative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | from autumn to ashes | ] |
it was a sunday after-night. everything was wonderful.
the stars were out, the moon was Their light for the walk.
as they walk, neither spoke a word. they walked holding hands.
he gently squeezed her hand. she smiles, and squeezes back.
he whispers "theres something i want to show you" She nods Her head
as They come to a clearing in the middle of the forest, its calm
with the wind blowing and the leaves on the floor rustling. the
moon shines through the thick branches of the pine trees.
He puts His hands over Her eyes and says " trust me"
Shes fearful but trusts Him non-the-less.
a few minutes pass and He lets Her see again
there They are oon the shore of a lake, moon shining down on Them
Her face is in awww, shes speechless, She hugs Him tightly
He looks in Her eyes and smiles, and says "anything for You"
She looks up at Him
He kisses Her, sweetly, innoscently, beautifully.
"I Love You, " He says
"I Love You Too" She replies
The End
<3 katey <3 |
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| between the buried and me |
[Jun. 1st, 2004|12:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the tick of the clock as i waste my life away | ] |
(You can't follow me)
I thought it was strange when all this shot into my mind driving. It's
weird how this enclosed space makes me think so clearly...so free! I wish
all hours were so relaxing. Thinking of the next noise...making up the
next noise. Scream loud, loud, loud, loud. Static intoxication, sing
this lovely violin song. Beat this bottle on a wall. Scream, scream,
scream. The baby cries. Record the noise. It all makes sense...we're
capable of beauty. Through sounds which make one cringe. The dogs only
hear us now. For the first time tears came to my eyes while I was
listening. Noise brings so many things...make my tingling skin freeze.
Turn me on, make me laugh, shoot the can, shut the door, pour your glass,
rape scene scream, car crash bash, black cat splat.
A silent death, a silent scream...You can't follow me, you sing along to
nothing.
here this is how i'm feeling:
Your piss is going sour... my mouth is full for the last time.
Don't think I don't read the gossip, don't think I
don't know what's coming out of your fucking mouth.
You're broken, and I'm laughing, you're broken-go
drink your life away. Go fuck your life away with your
filthy std's and your fucking night of rape.
Just go jerk off on your fucking stomach, impregnate
yourself. You're born again, just like you've always
been. Every fucking year... this year you abort
yourself-get the fuck out of my life.
Never come back, I don't ever need you around. What we
shared means shit to you. Laugh at me all you want,
but I'm living what you once wanted. And I'm happy...
happy to be alive with real friend who don't spit in my face.
Real friends don't end friendship with change. It's
really hard to realize that you've stooped so low.
I've given chances, I've tried to mend... but it's all
over now, I move on.
I piss in your mouth now, so don't ever talk to me again.
Tonight I will sleep well. Tonight I realize that I
will move on. Tonight I hope your bed catches flame.
Tonight I kill your fucking face.
I killed your face. |
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